After months of going back and forth about which school I wanted to attend and which field, I've finally enrolled for classes. I'll be attending the Dental Assistant program at UEI-San Marcos. After speaking with a counselor and going over costs and all that fun stuff I decided that was the college for me. It's only 8 months and I go Mon-Fri 10-2:30, so it's a fairly easy schedule that I know I can work around when it comes to my family and Ry. I have to admit I'm excited that I get to wear scrubs to school everyday, it just beats the extra 10 minutes it takes me to find something to wear (especially now because I feel like the fattest person ever ugh!). I know I'm a loser for being excited about something so stupid, but oh well!
I haven't been able to start weight watchers yet, because of money issues and trying to get the stupid car up and running (which is a story in itself). But as of last night I have decided to start jogging at least 4-5 times a week. We have a park by my house that has the perfect track for a jog, and I felt so much better after doing it, and 30 minutes out of my day is not that big of a deal. I just grab my iPod and some Smart Water and I'm good to go. After I come back home I try to do at least 100 crunches (25 regular and another 25 on each side, ending on the criss-cross kind). I feel GREAT today, of course a little sore, but I can do this.
I cannot stand the way I look, I was looking at pictures of myself before I got pregnant, you know those times when you 'thought' you were so fat and looking back you think "wtf was I smoking? I would give anything to be back to that size"? Yeah well I have to do something, and sitting on my fatass every day is not doing anything but making me feel more self conscious and ugly. I think I'll start writing down everything I put into my mouth, including mints, gum EVERYTHING. I am single now and I gotta get back out there, and I cannot do that looking like I do now. So wish me luck, I LOVE food and it's something that will not be easy to just give up. I know I can do this, I just have to put my mind to it. I have 40 lbs to lose, this is gonna be a long road, but Vegas is in a couple months and I HAVE to look good in a little dress when we go out to the clubs!
Anyways, as for my Rylie, she's the biggest brat ever! I absolutely love her to death, but something must be done about her attitude and that screaming! She screams all the time, and in public. Other than that she is walking and of course into everything. I have some work to do in the mommy department as far as discipline goes, that's another obstacle to conquer. Like everything else, I can do it.
Lacy Nicole
