California...H O M E

I've been in Ca for about 2 weeks now, and I have had the best time. Honestly I don't want to go back to NC. I know that is horrible to say, but NC just isn't home AT ALL. Even with Alex is there. I'm not going to get into my feelings on my marriage because this site isn't for that, so yeah....

Our trip to Fresno was BUSY! I tried to see everyone I could, but it is so hard when I don't have a car. I LOVED seeing my friends and their new babies. It's nice to have friends who know what I'm going through and are going through it at exactly the same time.

Disneyland was yesterday and I was amazed that we had already gone on everything we wanted to go on by noon. There were NO lines! The longest we waited was 25 mins and that was for Space Mountain, which I HIGHLY recommend, although it did make me a little sick (totally worth it haha). We were all done by about 3, ahh now I wanna go back!

I'm trying to stay here until the 6th because Alex won't even be home since he's in the field training for deployment. I'll contact the airline today and see what I can do.

Now I'm off to take a relaxing bath...I NEVER wanna leave!

Lace

So sad...

Last Friday Alex and I gave our Dog, Achilles to another family. We decided to make the choice because we felt it wasn't fair to him to live in such a small apartment with no room to run around to burn off energy. It hurt so bad when he didn't want to get into his new owner's car. I cried the whole night before, even though my dog wasn't the best dog, he was mine and I loved him like another child. I miss him like crazy and am constantly second guessing the choice I made to give him away. Just writing this down right now is bringing tears to my eyes. He loved us and trusted us and I feel like he thinks we abandoned him. I told his new owner that if things don't work out with him and he wants to get rid of him to give him back to us. If that happens then I am never going without him again. What did I do? He loved Rylie, he really did. OMG I never thought it'd hurt this much. I miss him!! I can't even post a pic of him because it hurts to look at them ahhh!!

2 more days till Cali, I know it'll keep my mind off of this. Oh God I hope so...

This time next week...

...Ry and I will be in CA! I can't believe how fast time has flew. I am in desperate need of this vacation. I've been busy getting everything ready for our 19 day trip. Making lists of things Miss Rylie will need for my mom, washing clothes, stocking up on formula and figuring out what I absolutely must take with us for our plane ride (7 hours altogether).

We will be going to Fresno, but only for a weekend because my cousin Melanie is having her bridal shower, which also happens to be on the day of her 22nd birthday. I am excited because I can pretty much see most of my family in one stop, PERFECT! I can't even begin to explain how excited I am to introduce Ry to everyone. Mainly my dad and sisters because Ry is my dad's first grandchild and my sisters first niece! I don't think it gets anymore exciting than that.

I will be celebrating my 23rd birthday during this vacation and my wonderful little sister has decided to take me to Disneyland! She is amazing, she knows how much I LOVE that place. It was all her idea, I can't wait to go. This trip is going to be great I just know it! Well it's down to 6 days and counting yay!